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Mr. Robert Campbell
Messrs H&A Campbell & Co
Feb 5th 1841
My Dear Mr. Campbell,
It is not quite according to rule for me to write first, but I will waive ceremony towards you and for once in my life do as I am desired, thus learning obedience in good time, your will I will always try to make a pleasure.
It seems like an age since you were here. Tuesday I thought a week and altho' we have had delightful weather and I have been out almost constantly, it seems dull and stupid, there is a void in all my pleasures and there is nothing but your presence which can fill the vacuum. I have no wish to lengthen the period of our separation and I am certain Mother will not refuse and I am surely no longer too young. There are many who will cause me grief to part with, but I am almost glad that St. Louis is so far distant, as it affords me an opportunity of showing you that I would rather be with you among strangers than without you among all my friends and relations.
Since our engagement has been renewed I feel so calm and happy before I felt as tho' a heavy burden oppressed me - when gayest I would sometimes stop suddenly remembering that I had done wrong and had no right to be happy, my conscience was a greater reproach than a thousand tongues. I do not feel the slightest care of anxiety for the future everything seems bright & happy before me. I am proud of you as my choice and I am sure your conduct will never
[Pg. Break] cause me a blush or a tear of shame. I know you would rather die than do anything mean or dishonorable.
Since I commenced writing I have received a letter from Mother in answer to one I wrote her about a week before you visited us. She speaks very kindly of you. I told her we expected you here. She says "that there is a charm in the names of Virginia & Robert Campbell" to her - to you she bids me say "that you will have to see her again before you will be acquainted with her" she would rather she says see me married to you than many other gentleman she knows, but does not wish me to marry any one to please her, for she thinks an independent old maid is a very enviable character. I like old maids very much but I must acknowledge I would rather be Mrs. R. Campbell than an old maid. A doubtful compliment - is it not? When you come on don't forget to bring Bessie, remember me affectionately both to her and the rest of the family. I confide in your promise not to show my letter to Mr. Martin or anyone else and believe me to be ever
Your own lazy